Monday, March 31, 2008


There's nothing like getting knocked flat on your butt with a migraine. Can I tell you how sick I am of these headaches? I've been getting them for years, but lately they have been coming more frequently and with much more intensity than in the past. I've been taking generic Midrin for a couple of years and it helps if I can catch the migraine from the start. The problem is, I wake up with them, and by then it's so intense that NOTHING helps me. I've tried other the counter stuff and even used "Head-On" (which actually does provide some relief). The problem is, they are all just "band-aids". I need to find out what is triggering them and what I can do long-term to keep them at bay. Our insurance at work sucks, so going to a billion different specialists isn't going to happen. I just hate how these headaches affect me. Not only do they make it hard to function in my daily life, it makes it extremely difficult at work to pay attention, they make me moody and I snap at Nathan and the kids. It's awful. I feel so NOT like myself, but I can't help it. So, if any of you have suggestions, send them my way. I'm almost to the point where I will try anything to get some relief!

Saturday, March 29, 2008

A New Obsession

For those of you that have known me for any length of time, you know I have this "thing" for shoes and purses. I LOVE them. I guess a lot of the reason behind that is no matter what my weight has been, those two things always fit. They can be so much fun and really add that extra "something" to an outfit. Over the years I've done better at taming my obsession. I still drool over the new Coach bags and shoes and SOMEDAY will own a LV Epi Cannes in red. But for now, I have found something fun and cheap! It is eyeglasses! A friend of mine turned me onto this website . Their glasses start at around $9 a pair for single vision prescription glasses. They have hundreds to choose from. I'm in eyeglass heaven!!! I know, most of you are used to seeing me in contacts, but there is something in the air in Olathe that has my allergies driving me crazy, so I've started wearing my glasses more. I was bored with the couple pair I had and now I have 3 lovely new pair that I can sport. Even better, I got for less the $40 shipped!!! I now keep checking for new arrivals and have my eye on a couple pair to make into prescription sunglasses. Seriously, for you accessory lovers like myself, check it out. You won't be disappointed!

Sunday, March 16, 2008

I Jinxed Myself

I knew as soon as I said we were all healthy something would happen. Of course, it happened to me. I have a lovely head/chest cold-allery-sinus stuff thanks to the weather. My nose is raw from blowing it so much and I even use the good Kleenex! I'm sure my coworkers are tired of hearing my cough, sneeze, sniffle and blow my ever-running nose. My ears are also stopped up which makes it kind of hard to properly hear my radio. It's bad when officers are coming in and asking which one of us is sick. BUT, this stupid cold is NOT going to stop me from coming to Wichita next week! I won't let it! I have a playdate as soon as I get into town to meet up with friends and have some good girl time. Not sure what else I'll do while I'm "home". Probably just enjoy seeing my parents, siblings, family and friends. It's going to get crammed into a few short days, but I NEED this trip. I'm homesick something terrible. I'll miss getting to see the kids hunt for Easter eggs, but got some cute things for their baskets, not to mention some stinkin' cute outfits. Now I just need to find shoes. Guess I'll add that to my list. Well, I need to go blow my nose and refill my water.

Thursday, March 13, 2008

Making myself happy?

How do you do it? I've always been a people pleaser, putting other's happiness before my own. Before it was my parents and friends, now it's my children. It used to make me happy that I made others happy, but I'm starting to not feel that way. Not that I don't want others to be happy, but I'm beginning to wonder when it's my turn. We moved to Olathe with the hope and promise that things were going to be better for us. That the money we'd be making would offset the the cost of living and give us some extra to pay down debt. Such has not been the case. Neither Nathan or I are making what was told to us and we are struggling just as much, if not more, than we were in Wichita. It doesn't help that I don't really have any friends up here that I can turn to. I have girls I work with that are nice, but if the complaint is about work, how do I do that? I'm just very disenchanted with a lot of things right now. I think a lot of it is that I am homesick. Nathan can go back to Wichita anytime and still have a job with the same company. I don't have that luxury. I can't go back to Derby making starting wage and since I don't have my degree, I can't get a job paying me what I make now. I just don't know what to do. I DO know that my unhappiness is leaking out into my daily life. I have a shorter temper with Nathan and the kids and things are work irritate me easily. I just feel like I'm not myself anymore. I can't make anyone happy because I'm so unhappy with myself and the way my life is going. Do I just suck it up and deal with it because the kids are finally getting settled in and making friends? Do I start looking elsewhere for a job? I just don't know...I just know that I want to be happy.

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

A Friend

I received this in an email from my mother in law and loved it.

Your Heart is your Love,
Your love is your Family ,
Your family is your Future ,
Your future is your Destiny ,
Your destiny is your Ambition,
Your ambition is your Aspiration ,
Your aspiration is your Motivation ,
Your motivation is your Belief ,
Your belief is your Peace ,
Your peace is your Target ,
Your target is Heaven,
Heaven is no fun without FRIENDSIt's "

F - Few
R -Relations
I- In
E - Earth
N - Never
D - Die

Monday, March 3, 2008


Gosh, I'm afraid to say the word out loud! It's kind of like mentioning we're quiet at work because you know as soon as you do, the crap hits the fan! But, it looks like everyone is well on the road to recovery. Grayson hasn't had a fever since Sunday morning. We're still giving him breathing treatments, but we do those periodically year round due to his RAD. So, I'm crossing my fingers we are out of the sick zone!

Spring break is approaching and I am hoping to take a few days and come to Wichita. I'm not making any promises, but I REALLY want to come and visit. I miss my family and friends and I need a break. I can't take time off of work, so it'll be a short visit, but worth it.

Anyway, I'm at work and need to get myself into work mode. Wishing everyone a good week!

Sunday, March 2, 2008

Financial Peace

Financial and Peace...not normally two words that you associate with each other. But, we are on our way there. Nathan and I enrolled in Dave Ramsey's Financial Peace University. It's a 13 week class that teaches how to get out of debt and stay out debt. This class is WONDERFUL. I would advise anyone to take it. Nathan and I had just become so overwhelmed in our debt that we didn't know what to do. We had more month than money and were constantly at each other's throats. I wanted to budget and Nathan thought it was pointless. We were spending like we had money when we didn't and charging like we could afford the payments. Well, all of that is stopping. We are following Dave's "Baby Steps" and learning how to live within our means. If we keep things up like we are right now, in 18 months we will be debt free with the exception of my student loans. Do you know how good that feels? 18 MONTHS!!! I know to some that may seem like an eternity, but to us it is the light at the end of the tunnel. We'll no longer be slaves to credit card companies or the IRS. Once the student loans are paid off, the only debt we hope to have will be a mortgage. We're going to try to live as debt free as possible. It's really a good feeling. Now that we are on the same page about finances, it has really lifted a heavy burden. We aren't perfect by any means, but at least we are working together. We are working on a zero-based budget and using the envelope system. It's taking a lot of work, but I know it'll be worth in the long run. Taking this class may also have been a lifesaver to our marriage.